The Limit of Love

 In The Name of Allah The Most Merciful and The Most Gracious

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone.

I didn’t wish to write something lengthy today but my mind keep talking about this, so I just drop here what I’m thinking.

Disclaimer before I started to the main topic, I am just an ordinary person, not a professional person and I’m write based on my experience and thought. If you find any grammatical error, please forgive me for that because I’m quite dizzy while writing this.

Before I started to the main topic, can you answer this?

Why do some people become so sad and blaming fate or even God when someone that dear to them or love been taken away from them?

I don’t know what your answer will be, but for me personally maybe it because we give our love a lot to that person or things. That is how it related to the topic that I’m writing in this post. I got to admit, sometimes I do have that kind of love without limit but it changes when I’m realising that the one that I love is belong to Allah and anytime Allah can take it away from me. It will not stay with me forever and it not belong to me, and even myself isn't belong to me. From that, I’m telling myself to cherish every moment and don’t take granted on any moment that I get with that person (basically I’ll realised this with my cats).

Do this limit is important? I would say yes. Because whenever I remind myself that everything is temporary and this things or person belongs to Allah, my action and mind will automatically cherish the moment. It just like you realised that every time you spend with that person is a gold. As we know, the habit of human is they appreciate something when it is gone and I don’t want that to be happen to meor even. When it comes the time that, someone that you dear returned to Allah, you’ll feel sad and at the same time, you also will be calm because you know that Allah is The Most Merciful and He love each, every of His Creatures which are we. Whenever I feel sad about losing my love one, I’ll remind myself that I’m should be thankful that Allah love her the most and all I can do is just pray that may Allah bless her soul.

It will be such a big lie if I say I never being demotivated or suffocated with life.

I have those days but I’m rarely exposing it because I don’t want to spread negative vibes of me to anyone and thank you too for everyone that have lighten up my days. Hugs. If I’m telling you guys my level of overthinking, you’ll be surprises, so I won’t tell. There was a day where I was sad when I saw someone true colours, but my inner self keep telling me to be sabr, Allah will help me. My tears coming without stop, then I remembered one of my senior’s Instagram profile which stated that; If you're sad, read Surah Ad-Dhuha. Besides, at that time, I haven’t performed my Dhuha prayer yet. Then I just listened to the Surah Ad-Dhuha with the translation via YouTube and I stopped the video at the third ayah which the meaning is; Allah didn’t leave you and He is not hating you. I felt so touched because at that time I felt ashamed to Allah because sometimes I wasn’t able to love myself, but He my lord, love me for whoever I am. He know me well than I am. You should read Surah Ad-Dhuha too because the translation is so beautiful and calm.

I’m sorry if this quite turn away from the topic, I wrote this spontaneous. It like fresh from oven I guess. Before I ended this post, sincerely from my heart, I would like to apologise to each of you if the past or current Atiqah has made any mistakes that either she realised or not. I don’t know how much time I left, how many hours I have to breath in this dunya. But if you think that, forgiveness is not something that worth for you, let me know okay so that we can settle this peacefully.

Thank you for your time reading this piece of Atiqah’s thought that I don’t even know if this beneficial for you. Have a great day ahead and may Allah bless our life and everyone that we love.