How 2020 goes?

 

In The Name of Allah, The Most Merciful and The Most Gracious

Assalamualaikum and Hi everyone!

 

Time flies really fast and it already in the last day of 2020. I haven’t made any resolution yet. My bad. Just a short thought on what has happened in 2020. Let just go straight because I’m quite sleepy now and tomorrow I got morning classes. Just want to inform even you didn’t ask.

Flies back to January 2020.

I got offered for ACCA studies but I reject it. A short minded Atiqah think she want just 4 papers of ACCA which she need to face bachelor first and Ma Shaa Allah, so many assignments. Danial Azizi has already work with EY firm while I’m still in bachelor. But please, don’t compare your journey with others okay. Please make a pray for me that I’ll continue for professional studies because the spirit seems gone but I’m still holding.

February 2020

I am officially ‘tauliah’ as Leftenan Muda Kesatria. Alhamdullilah and also obtaining Vice Chancellor Award for my diploma study. I won’t say diploma life is easy but compared to bachelor, yes it easy. So please to my younger generation, please do well in your diploma and enjoy your life okay.

Another Alhamdullilah is I got offer from Puncak Alam, finally study far away from Johor. But this was not easy either. I got homesick, stress with studies as you know anything that I’ve learnt in diploma related to bachelor which most of the lecturers will ask the students to do self-revision on diploma topics. I’m quite stress there because I’m not smart enough, my memories not good enough.

Bad news happened too where Kitty, my cat, lost after 2 weeks I went to Puncak Alam. Crying a lot because my family have taken care of her since she was a few months I guess until she has children. I missed her so much. We couldn’t track where she goes, but in my deepest heart, I do miss her and pray that may one day she returned home.

March 2020

Covid-19. This is really a huge matter because it still happened until now. I missed my campus, my college. I just have been 3 weeks in Puncak Alam, not many event that I’ve participated. I wish we can go to our campus next semester. Amin. I’ve been tired facing this RMO actually. Online Distance Learning (ODL) quite stressful especially because I left all my books at college. For the third language subject, the lecturer taught us based on textbook and I didn’t bring mine. So, I just copied the textbook.

April to May 2020

Nothing big happened I guess.

June 2020

I got an issue this month where my college clearance day was on the same day with my test. Then, the JPK was bias, yes she is. In the morning, she accepted my friends changing date for clearance. But then in evening, as I just knew this from my friend and I texted her, she said she cannot help me because I’m late. Before that, the other JPK told me called directly to the college officer but none answer my call. I think they should use all medium to inform the students about news rather than relying on one social media only. Alhamdulillah, I got change my date through the college officer after I sent an e-mail to her. Luckily she is a fast respond.

July to August 2020

Nothing big happened. Just sitting for examination

September 2020

The day where I realised that Bubu’s leg injured. She cannot walk, just like ‘seret’ her body and I don’t know why that time, she sat under my mum’s car. Whenever I moved her to the wakaf, she would walk again under my mum’s car. So the next morning, I was really worried that if she might get hit as she sat under the car. Before my mum went to work, I went to her car first and take Bubu to wakaf. So afraid to hold Bubu because she so thin at that time.

In September too, I got an offer by JPA for scholarship, but I don’t think it as scholarship. Let just call it study loan as I need to pay if I’m decided not to work with government. It has the agreement that need to follow and anyone can ask to JPA scholarship okay. Just google on it and Mr Google will tell you more.

Another rezeki in September, I got my very first customer for my business. It just a small business anyway but I have been stop for a while to focus on my studies as yeah bachelor quite stressful and busy buzz buzz.

October 2020

My kitties died because of parasite worm. I was crying a lot because every morning, I’ll find her and called her name and then she running to me, Ma Shaa Allah so cute. I missed her but Allah love her more right? Then I learnt when and what to do when the kitties started not to eat. You need to force them.

Then, my classes started, same goes with my anxiety and stress life. Huh

November 2020

Bubu died due to she was so old. In the morning, usually I’ll give my cats breakfast, but I didn’t found Bubu. My sister said she has been missing for 2 days. In the other evening, I was going to ‘jemur baju’ and I smelt bad smelt. Bau bangkai. I tried to track where the smell came from and found out it was from Bubu, who was missing for 2 days actually has died. I missed you, Bubu. I’ll miss your eyes which staring me whenever I ignoring you, the eyes of asking me to understand you. You’ve do it well, dear.

I tried for SMF. Very unexpected, I got the position but just the common not the top level management. Maybe I should try the top level management but don’t know when.

It has 2 stages which 1 is the interview and second is the fake event management, where we were given task to handle an event with big 4 firm for 2 hours and 30 minutes. Quite stressful because I got multimedia and I hate it. But, I’ve learnt a lot from this for my designing skills. Alhamdulillah.

Another loss here where Atini died at my rooftop while her kitties still alive. So sad because they just born for 2 weeks and none cats want to ‘susukan’ them.

December 2020

A lot of assignments where I wished to run away from them.

That’s all I guess. Thank you for reading and see you in 2021.