LET IT GO

 

In The Name of Allah, The Most Gracious and The Most Merciful

Assalamualaikum and Hi, everyone. Last week I have heard a talk from Aida Azlin from her IGTV; Be forgiving to your past self. In that talk, she had share one beautiful quote that she holds on;

‘Be forgiving to your past self. Be discipline to your present self, and be flexible with your future self’

You can watch the whole talk about that quote because I’m just going to talk about the first phrase of the quote – be forgiving to your past self. I had once received shoutout from someone in AskFM regarding this question and I will share with you my answer at the end of this post. If you have watched a Korean drama; It’s Okay to Be Not Okay; the first fairy tale written by Goo Moon Young is related to forgiving past self. If you haven’t listen or watched this drama, please kindly look for it. *Please forgive this little me for suddenly promoting this drama. * At first I watched the fairy tale, I couldn’t understand the story. However, after the scene of Sang Tae rescuing the uncle in the bus, I do get what the fairy tale wish to tell the readers – let go of the past. Why the boy keeps having nightmare even though he had deal with the witch? Because he keeps the painful memory and didn’t overcome it.

                A few days recently, my past be like hunting me. I was in the term of thinking; what’s wrong actually happened to the old me because I feel like I’m changing into someone that passive. I kept thinking the source, the main scenario why I’m changing and I think I knew it. There it goes, hunting me in whatever I did. It drowning and I realised that this is not good. I even make dua’ to Allah for forgiving my past that I can’t even remember why I’m changing and I put all of my faith to Him – which means I’m letting go of my past. It has been past, has happened and I, this tiny little human cannot change any single things of my past – which I need to accept and forgive myself in past.

                But at the next day, it still haunting me. I cannot focus on what I did, I acknowledge my emotion and my inner self keep telling me to let it go. So, that is when my inner self has a self-talk with me. A lot of praises to Allah for giving me such a beautiful inner self that really take care of myself. At first, I started to think to call BeFrienders but yeah, the actual person that I need to talk with is myself. It doesn’t matter if you get a million of advises, motivation if it is yourself who didn’t want to listen to it. I’m not really academician to talk about self-love, mental illness or motivator but I need to be a motivator for myself at least because I’m the one who are going to create my future. In order to create such a beautiful, great, ambitious future, I need to focus in my current life and that is the meaning of second phrase of quote- be discipline to your present self. Do anything that you think it will worth for your future. Be a risk taker. Remember, high risk, high return. If you’re accounting student, you know what I mean.

                I just want to list down some lessons that I learnt from my mistakes and I wished this benefits you too:

1. It okay to make mistakes – mistakes help you learn and grew up to be the best person of yourself.

2. Human change – never assume that they’ll be the same person even if you just met them yesterday. Just be you.

3. Enjoy the process – don’t teach yourself to run away from problems, wherever you go, there still the problem you need to face. So, chin up, enjoying the process while you figuring out the solution.

4. Be the best you – whatever you’re doing right now, just do whatever you want to do. Or if it not something that you want, just do it anyway, just give all of you can. Be brave to take the risk. Fake it till you make it. You can do this.

5. Put your trust to your Lord – we planned and our Lord also has a plan for us. But His plan is such a beautiful plan that we may never imagine it will be. Never underestimate the power of dua’. Remember that your Lord is your Creator and He know what lies in your heart even you didn’t say it. Make Him as you bestfriend.

6. Be kind – you may not know what other person facing in that day or their lives. Just be kind, say the good words and smile. If you’re know brave or shy to say it to them, just make a dua’ for them okay. Don’t simply judging others intention unless you can see their heart. Don’t forget to be kind to yourself too okay.

7. We can always start-over – we cannot return to our past, but it doesn’t mean that we’re too late to change, to start over our life. Make it simple but meaningful and benefited for you. Don’t wait for suitable time, just do it.

So, what about you? What did you have learnt from your past that you would like to share with? Just drop at the comment section below and it is a pleasure for me to learn from you.

Lastly, if me in the past had hurt you or if my current self has hurt you, I would like to apologize for that from the bottom of my heart. But if forgiveness is not what you deserve from me, please kindly let me know, so that we can deal for it.

So, I just drop this here okay.

Thank you for reading.J