Killer Semester?

Assalamualaikum.

   How is your day today? I hope its a good day for you, In Shaa Allah. Alhamdulillah, its a good day for me because I just get my examination result this morning. But I just don't know why I'm didn't get really nervous as semester 2. Maybe because I'm felt that I'm might not survive for this semester. The result was supposed to be get by this particular apps; but well you know UiTM's student is super duper many okay cause I couldn't logged in into that apps. I just realized that 'Salam' in my notification and like 'WHAT'?. Haha.. Cause I though there is not 'Salam' anymore. But actually waiting for 'Salam' is kind a more nervous as it appear in midnight but my 'Salam' for this semester 

appear in dawn.

   So, back to our topic; Killer Semester?. Yes, for me, my semester 3 was tough; but semester 2 more tougher. Hahaha. Why do I said like that? Before I started semester 3, there was some difficulties that I'm facing and it made me super stress. Well, its too young to be stress guys? I'm have problem to register my class; I have more than 5 classes in one semester until I'm confused sometimes which class for this subjects, I had problems with my group mate; my group assignment became failed for that subject and also my health issue. Not forget, semester 3 have a lot of drama either. Sorry, I can't list all the problems as it might bring sensitive issue here. Let make it peace, okay.

   But personally for me, semester 3 was my independent semester; a lot of me time, a lot of alone time and some depressed. It like fighting against your thought. I remembered the first feeling I get during I entered Financial Accounting 3 class, I'm doubt that am I've too far for this course? Am I able to survived for this course? It kept worrying me and addition my lecture was quite fast as I'm registered in fast learner class as actually I'm not. Sometimes during I'm did my homework, again I'm doubt myself; why this is so hard to understand? Am I too stupid to get this? There where my stress came. When the test come and get the result, I'm get lower mark and there is some subjects that I almost got failed. It so stress guys. You have to manage your emotional, time, physically and mentally as well. Honestly, it really make me mad when I'm think I wasn't able to do the exercise.

   So, how do I managed that negatives thought? I'm shared it with my friend and asked her some emotional support, tell her my worried and she is really make me amazed. She is always there; she would sent to me a lot of cute and positive quotes and yes, my storage was full because of her. I'm just so lucky to have friend like her. May Allah bless her.

The beautiful one is her. If you meet her anywhere, please be kind with her because she so kind and she deserve it.

 As I don't really have friend for semester 3, I did share my thought with my family. I would call my mum once a week just to chat. Yeah, at least I'm heard her voice. That much better. Besides that, I do write my thought in diary to let my thought free. Sometimes when I'm wrote what I felt, it like automatically will give positive reflect to myself. It like you're talking to yourself. 

   The important point is if you do have problems or something that disturbing your mind, don't ever hesitate to share it with someone that you trust. Don't keep holding it, okay. Try to give yourself some spaced if you got the problems but don't give a lot of 'me time' to yourself. One of my senior said; it not really good to be alone with the disturbing mind. With that, I'm ended my post.