Is I'm a munafik?

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                 Hi, there. Have long time I'm not updating anything as quite busy right now. It is the final week as right now I'm waiting for my final paper. May Allah SWT ease everything. Amin. In shaa Allah. So, back to the main topic is about I'm asking myself about that. Lets make it simple, okay.

                 I have joined halaqah group since interim semester. But, in my second semester, the halaqah was a bit change of their (the person that provide us the talk) style in spreading the knowledge about Islam. I admit that I wasn't too pious. Before this, they would start it with game first before start the halaqah session and I'm really comfortable with that style then the recent style. The recent style wasn't friendly for me as they invite personally rather than group. But not just like whatsapp personally, they like attacking the same person that have attend the other halaqah session before. I just don't know but they will keep asking when do I free? Not once, many times until I felt like drowning. If before this, the sisters always invite us in group, let the others know, let the others join, lets it be as many as it can. They just won't ask us many times when do we are free, they really friendly.

              The recent halaqah was like they have combined their group to make it like a small scope. The ways they spreading the knowledge for me it quite overload as I don't understand the content of their talk. The before one, the spread it just nice, short and understandable. One thing that I'm quite don't like when someone is trying to talk, they do not look to whom are they talking. I mean the audience category. They spread the knowledge by using the high level words that I'm unable to interprete it. They spreading the knowledge like I am among of them but the reality is not! They keep talking about dakwah, yes, it is the good things but my inside wasn't able to accept that yet. I wasn't a person that wearing 'tudung labuh', pious. No, I'm not.

              I become not sincere to attend the halaqah because of that. It feel like a burden when people asking you like they actually forcing you. For me, dakwah is suppose to spread it with freedom, not force. They should not become bias in spreading the dakwah. Yes, they are doing the good deeds and this is why I'm asking myself, is I'm a munafik? What about your opinion?